Do I Really Think I Can Do What I Want Or Have I Boxed Myself In?
OK, regrets aren't great, so that disclaimer aside: If I could go back in life and change anything, sometimes I think it would be what I studied at university.
I took a generic media and communications degree, which admittedly did get me into magazines, but whilst I was on it, I did spend quite a bit of time wistfully gazing over at my peers in the TV, video and media production courses.
I gazed enviously as they sat in their editing rooms, tinkered with their camera equipment, preparing for assignments to shoot films... and I flirted with the idea of ditching my course and joining them (I didn't, though).
After that, no matter how well my career was going, I always had a secret desire to magically leap out of print media - my domain - into broadcast and film, but it never happened. And to this day, I still look at vloggers and independent documentary makers on YouTube with a certain degree of envy.
So what's stopping me? Carol Dweck might argue it's a Fixed Mindset.
Dweck, a Professor of Psychology at Stanford University, is behind the psychological theory of Growth Mindsets. Based on her research, she says that what keeps us from growing as individuals is our belief that we have reached our ceiling - or that we were born with a limitation (or a number of them) and are lumbered with it for the rest of our lives.
Her TED Talk, "The Power of Yet" delves into her findings that the kinds of kids who actually do well at school aren't necessarily naturally gifted at anything - they just take joy in challenges and, crucially, believe they can get better at things.
It is something we could all do well to remember. Perhaps we just haven't quite got to wherever we want... yet.
And, reassuringly in a recent interview, she points out that there isn't any particular kind person who is blessed all round with this kind of thinking.
There isn't a "Growth Mindset Type" per se.
All of us can be optimistic about our abilities and ambitions in some areas yet crushingly pessimistic in others, she says. And she advises we would do well to be aware of those areas of our life where we close off opportunities to ourselves in the mistaken belief we do not have what it takes to get there.
I'll keep that in mind next time I catch a "fit of the envies"...